hey guysss!!!! geeez its been forever! sooo sorrri! well its halloween.... and its 11:58 whooop whooop and im about to go to sleeeeep cuz today was an awesomly fun day but im superrrrrr exausted! i went over adams and we watched scurry moovies and then attemped to go get pumpkins but instead we got mangoS! ..i think?... haha well anyways and then we came home and played the guitaR! and then watched another mooovie and then went to adams g-ma's! and there was a cute lil halloweeeen party! was SoOoO totally awesome!

today was the besssst halloween everrrr! i love adam sooo much! im just sooo speechless i dont even kno where to start .... were going on 4mths! and everything is still picture perfect. i wouldnt change anything. i could fill up this whole page with i love adam's but u already kno that and so do i ..... and im sure you would probly read 1 line and say omg thats sooo middle school but ill leave saying this..... I want to spend the rest of my life with him. Ive never met anyone like him, he's so perfect to me and everything is truly in its place. Theres always that little speech tht your mom will tell us girls....saying "aww well ull b there one day.... ur time will come" meaning you'll b with your special sum1...and sumhow u two will meet and just totally fall in love and b the bestest friends. And now i can honestly say that Im living my wish.... every single day.... God really does listen..... God gives us sum1 to love and to be loved by, thats what makes life so special... when u actually wake up every morning- and just think to youself that your living for another person- just to see them smile, laugh, and have a huge glow around them. everytime i see him my heart beats twice as fast and my eyes light up and i get lotzaaa butterflies, its the greatest most unexplainable feeling....and it will never stop

"To love is to have a heart; to be in love, is to make it beat."

Nite Everyone Sweet Dreams @---->-------

i knoo....i knooo its beeen forever... or at least it seems like it... wow i got thru my first week of school alive haha its finally the weekend! but it almost overr  but i did get to c aDam! friday and today! which i totallllllly lovvved! cuz i missed him soooooooooo much it was just incrediable ... friday we went out to din din and then watched a walk to remember! and omg! every minute im with him im just soo completly happy ... ive been keeping this in for awhile but its finally coming out ... Im so l-o-v-e with him ...and the greatest part was ..he felt the same way .. i never wanna loose him ...i want him forever ... 

i love him so much

and i want the whole world to know

one word.... buSY! wow... i never thought i could actually b this busy....but hah school is here and everything is just like whooosh ... i mean everything is being thrown at u at once and its vurrry overwelming! i got to talk to adam for a lil bit tonite on the fone but.... then my mommi said "time to get off the fone" omg i hate that .... that realli means summer is over...its just now hitting me...  i cant call friends during the day anymore or watch elimidate with laur laur and i cant lay around in my jamz anymore  until the weeekend! ....this year ...it just seems like a whole buncha work is gunna b given to us....and that sux lol but its school...what do u expect? .... it feels soo weird just adjusting bck into the lil routine and i forgot what it was like to b tired in the morning...cuz i wouldnt wake up till 11:30 or 12 and now its like BeEp BeEp - and u roll over and look at ur clock and its  6:30Am....ughh not fun ...at all... but thats life... yeah... it sux haha... i cant stop thinking about aDam! hes just the grestestest ... i think about him allllll the time ...every single day .... nonstop ....its just soo grreat and guesss what girls?!?! hOmEcomiNg is coming up in oCtOber! ...which is.. NeXXT month! yup yup! im sOoOoOoo totally stoked about that  whoop whoop 

whoaa its 10:55..... its getting late lol ...last nite i didnt go to sleep till 12:30 and i didnt think that would b tooo bad...cuz yeahhh 12:30 is earli duuude! but this morning....whoa buddi... it was hard to get outta bed lol i still cant believe ..just like when i look at all my friends and even me!.....were sophmores now! were not lil freshman anymore... its just totallly WOW.... were growing up....awWww lol  

wow i just got realli tired all of the sudden ... im gunna go to sleeeep

adam i misss u sooooOo much babe!*mWa

nite everrybody

lub u all! >thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss< MuCH!

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's a mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

wow whata day... i woke up around 12:30 and then got online and talked to laur and adam! on the fone and i had cereal... and then i did the dishes and then watched tv and then hung out with my lil brother for a couple hours and then my parents worked on my room and my older brother came over...wow he got ....older-ish ... its kinda sad cuz im not realli like close with him...he has a family now and i really dont talk to him that much... i miss that brotherly luvvv... i see what me and my older brother have (which isnt much) and then i look at what me and my little brother have...and with my lil bro its the greatest.... i cherish every moment i have with him...and i spend as much time as i can with him....even tho im busy with friends and adam and soon ...school.... i always wanna make time for him and even spend every chance i get with him.... bcuz if i dont....he'll grow up one day...and ill say "wow where did the years go" i lovee my little brother sOoOo much ....hes my lil buddi ....  and even with my older sister.... im not that close with her either...and u would think we would b bcuz the whole sister-sister thing...but shes older and has a bf that shes realllllllli serious about and she has 2 jobs... when i think about all the times that my older brother and sis "had things to do" and just listening to them say "not rite now kira.. i dont have time" i realized ive said that to my lil brother and i dont wanna b like them.... i wanna b there for him during every single moment in his life... his graduation... his lil boy scouts and his first gf! ...or even helping him with homework..or giving him advice.. im soo happy that me and him r soo close... even tho hes only 9 ..hes the greatest....and i love him  it feels soo good to kno that im a big sister ... and he looks up to me .. thats the biggest reward u could everr get..... and its soo cute cuz today i went outside with him and jumped on the trampoline and all he talks about is adam....adam ...adam....."whens adam coming over?!" "adams soo awesome" he just gets soo excited ...its soo adorable

geez its only been a day and i miss adam already

im so lucky

thank u God

heyyy everybody!! wow its been like a day or two since i wrote in hurr! weirded ...cuz normally its like everyday im writing and just telling u absolutly everything.... well ... ive beeen more than goood! ive seeen adam sooo much this week and im soooooo happppy about that!! geEez i luvvv seeing him and being with him .... i luvv being his girlfriend .... things r sooooo beyond perfect with me and him  he came over last nite and tonite and everything was just wow.... hes my best friend... i can tell him anything...and just b my crazy-self around him all the time ...he is on my mind nonstop.... its just sooo amazing to have a boyfriend and a best friend at the same time and in 1 person .... my life is soo great ... i never want these feelings to end ...and i kno they wont bcuz i have a realli good feeling about him.... i dont kno how to explain how much i like him or what words to use ..but i do kno that i like him a.l.o.T ... i care about him sooo much and i miss him constantly ... i think about him all the time....when i wake up ...when i go to sleeep...and all thru-out the day.... can u explain it ? ....cuz i cant....im not gunna put the "L" word on it ...cuz i dont kno if it is that ....but i can say that it feels soo close to it.... i feel soo rite with him.... everything happens for a reason ...its funni how things happen in ur life...that dont make sense to u as their happening but then as u grow up...u begin to realize all the good that comes into ur life and it changes the way u perception towards  things  ....and then i met adam...and he asked me out...which was one of the greatest days and the purest highlight of my life... .... i dont regret anything in my life....bcuz everything does have a purpose...and a happy result ..what goes around comes around...and the more good u do...the more u will receive and thats (sOoOo truu).. and rite now everything in my heart is telling me to b with him..... and i am....and im not letting him go...

orientation tomorrow!

gotta get summ sleeep

*nite*

adam- thank u soo much for everything ...u mean the world to me and soo much more